I want to find the day where my vacation, my days off, my life is about me… Is it simply my choices that have lead me here? Is it as simple as changing my mind? Is changing my mind simple at all? Do I just need different people in my life or do I need time alone? How do u figure it out? That’s a lot of questions but maybe someday I’ll have an answer…
They have always said that trust is the key to a happy & healthy relationship. I never questioned it until I found myself in a position where I can’t trust the man I love the most. But I don’t want to walk away, even if I sometimes wonder if it wouldn’t be better for us both. I have no idea where to even start rebuilding… I don’t know if there’s anything I can do… Maybe I just have to wait for him to come around, maybe I have to try to take charge & make things happen, or maybe I should just cut my losses and run. The problem is I don’t know how to do any of those…
Yeah, that was pun intended. Weed may be my least favorite thing ever. A year and a half ago, I liked having at parties like pretty much every kid these days. However, a year and a half with a total pothead & I can’t stand the sight or smell of it. If I was never around it ever again, it would be too soon. I’m aware that it is an obvious bias that I have because I have been exposed to something that is way outside my normal life. After this long around something I’m not into, I’m pretty sure my disdain is irreversible by now. Is it just that too much of any BS for too long is bound to make you crazy? Maybe…
